LOL.
But while we are talking about school, I'm 97% sure I'm going back to teaching next year. I've been very much on the fence for the last year and a half, so this is as close as I've come to being sure about the decision. It is 100% the wrong decision for the next 8 years of our lives but definitely the right decision for the long run. It is my dream job, it is the perfect job for me, I realize I miss it, I love making an impact on so many lives, I love teenagers and all their energy, and it makes me jealous and angry to think of my sub "stealing" my position, my SMARTBoard, my classroom, etc [this girl never even had to interview!!!!!!!!].
Plus now that it is rainy / cold everyday, I'm definitely going 100% INSANE. I think 2 years off is / was the perfect amount for me. The thing I'm having the hardest time with is the bedtime thing. Blaine sleeps 8:30 pm - 8:30 am give or take 45 minutes or so on each of those times. If I'm getting him up next year at 6:15, suddenly we are looking at a 6:15 bedtime. I know lots of you mommy's out there have always had your kids on that type of schedule, but we haven't. And it really REALLLLY will have to change how we live our lives [we aren't even home until after 8 most nights]. Plus he will probably never see Nick in the evenings who will be switching to 10 hour days next year so he can get one day off per week to babysit. Gah. Plus the obvious, I WILL MISS BLAINE SO MUCH.
But I will manage and eventually I will adjust.
PS must share an old pic I am in love with:
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can you explain how you came up with 8 years as the time it is wrong for you guys? it sounds like even though part of you still wants to stay home that you are comfortable with your decision.
I went back to teaching only after 3 months of maternity. Hardest but best decision for me. I am a teacher as well and I didn't want to give up my position. I worked hard for the "perfect" teaching job. There were plenty of people who wanted it. Sounds like you are making a good decision for you.
if everything goes as planned, it will be 8 years before all kids are in school! and you are right: a part of me definitely wants to stay home and will always want to stay home. but another part of me deep down knows that once they are in school, it is that job that I will want to have. And once it is gone, it is gone forever. My school [and lots of others] won't even interview someone with over 3 years of experience and / or a masters degree. Plus there is the whole "paying for college, paying for a bigger house, paying for kids" thing that we will need to do in the future and we will do a lot less worrying on the financial side of things if I have my job.
^^ awh, thanks, mom on the run! same here!! every opening at my school gets over 400 applicants applying for it. it is crazy to believe!!
When Logan started daycare, he adjusted to taking longer naps during the day. That was one of my fears about going back to work, and DH's when he coaches because he doesn't get home until 6:30 or 8:30 on game nights. But most nights he goes down around 8:30, so we get some time with him.
Our boys just take longer naps during the day, which I know is something you have struggled with. Maybe as the time gets closer, just adjust his wake-up a little at a time and see if his napping improves?
Oh my goodness! That's a huge decision!
I completely understand your dilemmas and I know you'll figure out a way to make things work. Remember, that little buddy is your number one! Hopefully your job, passion, husband and son will be able to work as a great team.
I sometimes think about going back to work, but we want to have at least 1 more before I do that. I think I'll be in a similar position to you, I'll miss my little buddy!
good decision... those big school kids need you too!
Adorable picture! Blaine looks like such a big boy! It will be an adjustment, but it sounds like going back to teaching will be the best decision for your family. So glad you have a job you love (and I'll admit, I miss my SMART board too!)
Glad you're figuring it out kiddo...sometimes it just takes time, but eventually the dust settles and you can see what you need to do :)
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